It's days like these that make me want to just...

Today was, is... just keep reading. 


  I sometimes feel like maybe none of it is worth all the effort that I put into it. There's an unknown quote that says "Before you give up, think of the reason why you held on for so long." My problem is that I don't remember what I've been holding onto. I can't remember the reason behind anything. Sometimes I feel like I've been doing it all just because. Lately, I've been studying Humanities for school and because I only do what subject at a time, I get so focused on doing well in that one thing that I can't remember why I'm doing it in the first place. I get stressed out about one little thing and I can't seem to follow up on any of it. I'm sinking, drowning, going down, deeper into something that I don't understand.


   This song has been playing lately over the radio, my iPod, and even in my head. But it's not "touching" me at all. But I'll share it with you anyway and maybe it will bless you.


"You are more than the choices that you've made, 
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes, 
You are more than the problems you create, 
You've been remade. 

'Cause this is not about what you've done, 
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been, 
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel, 
But what He felt to forgive you, 
And what He felt to make you loved. 

You are more than the choices that you've made, 
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes, 
You are more than the problems you create, You've been remade." You are More by Tenth Avenue North

   There is a pressure to do different things and I feel like I'm drowning in it all. I think I am, drowning in the pressure and stress. I don't know. I don't understand. I want to know why. I want answers, but I'm not getting any.

 Why God, Why? Why do You give me these situations to go through but there does not seem to be anyway out? Why am I drowning? Why do I feel like it's all been in vain? Why do I feel like I'm doing it "just because?" WHY GOD, WHY?!?!? GIVE ME ANSWERS! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

Song as a reminder

This song is such a good encouragement as a remind that EVERYTHING matters.



Well let me remind you, it all matters just as long
As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you, 
Cause he made you, 
To do
Every little thing that you do 
To bring a smile to His face
Tell the story of grace
With every move that you make
And every little thing you do 

~ Do Everything- Steven Curtis Chapman

  What a great reminder that everything we do, whether it's making dinner, sitting in traffic, cleaning the house, going to work, or anything else, it all matters to God. EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT. So remember this- everything matters in the light of eternity.


Praying for many of my friends and coworkers who need His touch!

I just have to make a quick post about this song I heard. Here are the lyrics to the chorus-

"All I know is I'm not home yet 
This is not where I belong 
Take this world and give me Jesus 
This is not where I belong!" ~Where I Belong


Home is not this world. Home is the world "up there" with my Savior and all my coheirs in Christ. So take this world away because all I need is Jesus! 


Link to song- Where I Belong- Building 429

It's Sunday

Today was an overall excellent day! Both church services were very enjoyable and then the Giants won against the Green Day Packers!! Very exciting! My family are huge football fans so we were very happy!

I watched Sense and Sensibility this afternoon and I'm watching the 2005 Pride and Prejudice now and I am beginning to remember why I love these movies/stories/books so much! They are reminders that there are still some good in the world. Maybe, just maybe...

All well. When this is over, time for bed. Maybe if I get all my schoolwork done on time, I can watch another :)

Love in Him,

Abby

So much to do... so little time.

I have SO much to get done, but I feel like there's no time. Right now I have to write a summary report to review on Everyman and read The Rime of the Ancient Mariner. Sometimes I feel like there's so much pressure that is on me making me suffocate. I have been trying this new year to really focus on what's really important like my relationship with my Lord and my school until April when I will have a much needed break. But I can't seem to focus on the things at hand. I have quiet music on the try to keep me focused but it's not working. Neither is my coffee, or my hot cocoa, or anything else. I hate days like these.

Time to try again....

Tonight---

I'm hoping tonight to get to sleep like a normal person at a reasonable hour, but considering that it's already 10:30 and I'm still up-and-about, I don't think that it's going to happen. Today was really a lot of fun! I had only a couple hours at work, then I had dinner with some old friends catching up, and then, I Skyped with some friends from Minnesota!!! So much fun in one day!!! :)

But tonight as I attempt some sleep, I'm going to be praying for all the different needs in my church, my family, and my friends who are struggling with so many things- There are various people in my church who really need a healing touch from God; family members who need to know Him as their Savior; and friends who are tackling many life-altering choices and could use a LOT of prayer! But what I can remember for myself and to remind them is that- "Our God is an Awesome God!" We can believe in the power of prayer because of who we believe in!

That's what I'm doing tonight- as I go to sleep, to prayer for those who really need it.

I shall say good night all (hopefully I will not be on here again today :/)
Abby

2 am and counting...

It is now 2 am on Tuesday as I sit here typing this. I hate when I can't sleep for no real reason... I don't know why, but it's giving me time to listen the Handel's Messiah. The words seem to calm my heart as I listen to it. "O thou that tellest good tidings to Zion, get thee up into the high mountain; O thou that tellest good tidings to Jerusalem, lift up thy voice with strength; lift it up, and be not afraid; say unto the cities of Judah, Behold your God!" 
This reminds me that what I really need to is worship Him. He will guide and calm. That is my prayer for myself and others.

I promised a picture of dinner- the red potatoes I made. If anyone is interested, I can post the recipe on here. It's really simple and very scrumptious! But we had this with a tasteful roast pork tip that I could in the slow cooker. I'm not sure what I put in there considering that it had "a little of everything!" But over all it was a successful meal! :)


I am hoping to make a stew on Friday, which I have made before and it is a winter favorite! 


So now it is 2:10 am and I am still awake- I'm really rambling right now because I am tired but I can not fall asleep. Sometimes I am afraid to fall asleep because of these awful nightmares that I often get. They vary a bit, but they always have something happen. My family and friends are sick, hurt, or worse; yet, the worse is when I dream that I am all alone in the world. No one to talk to, sing with, cook for, take care of, pray for, worship together, etc. It's a very terrible feeling, to feel helpless I mean. But what I do, is pray. And sing. Singing helps :]


I have a friend who is going through a "personal crisis" of sorts. I would appreciate your prayers for her very much. Also for me- I'm going to attempt some sleep now at 2:20 am and I do have a lot to accomplish tomorrow (today). Your prayers are coveted greatly!




May God bless you richly as you delight in His word, live in His will, and love Him with all that is within you!

lesson learned!

I haven't posted in a while. It's been so busy! I have a lot going on. I'll have to post later after I cook dinner :) the picture that's attached is something that  happened at work. BABY SKITTLES!!! :)

I have a very dear friend of mine who has a ear and throat infection, so I would appreciate your prayers for her! :) another close friend of mine is going through a lot. He has major choices to make and he is having a very difficult time so your prayer for him would also be appreciated!

Other than that, I've been trying to concentrate on something I was asked to do for the year. My Sunday school teacher gave a pamphlet that has a schedule to read the Bible through the year. So far it's been so amazing just delving into God's word everyday and trying just learn more and more about Him and His will for my life. Here is a thought that the Lord gave me today- "Wait on the Lord, and keep His way, and He shall exalt you to inherit the land..." Psalm 37:34

This verse remind me that when I wait upon the Lord and follow His way, there is a reward! Many people don't realize this when the think about Christianity. We have a reward that no one can ever replace!!! What could be more amazing than life eternal? May the Lord help us realize that and share it with others :)