It's days like these that make me want to just...

Today was, is... just keep reading. 


  I sometimes feel like maybe none of it is worth all the effort that I put into it. There's an unknown quote that says "Before you give up, think of the reason why you held on for so long." My problem is that I don't remember what I've been holding onto. I can't remember the reason behind anything. Sometimes I feel like I've been doing it all just because. Lately, I've been studying Humanities for school and because I only do what subject at a time, I get so focused on doing well in that one thing that I can't remember why I'm doing it in the first place. I get stressed out about one little thing and I can't seem to follow up on any of it. I'm sinking, drowning, going down, deeper into something that I don't understand.


   This song has been playing lately over the radio, my iPod, and even in my head. But it's not "touching" me at all. But I'll share it with you anyway and maybe it will bless you.


"You are more than the choices that you've made, 
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes, 
You are more than the problems you create, 
You've been remade. 

'Cause this is not about what you've done, 
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been, 
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel, 
But what He felt to forgive you, 
And what He felt to make you loved. 

You are more than the choices that you've made, 
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes, 
You are more than the problems you create, You've been remade." You are More by Tenth Avenue North

   There is a pressure to do different things and I feel like I'm drowning in it all. I think I am, drowning in the pressure and stress. I don't know. I don't understand. I want to know why. I want answers, but I'm not getting any.

 Why God, Why? Why do You give me these situations to go through but there does not seem to be anyway out? Why am I drowning? Why do I feel like it's all been in vain? Why do I feel like I'm doing it "just because?" WHY GOD, WHY?!?!? GIVE ME ANSWERS! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

Song as a reminder

This song is such a good encouragement as a remind that EVERYTHING matters.



Well let me remind you, it all matters just as long
As you do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you, 
Cause he made you, 
To do
Every little thing that you do 
To bring a smile to His face
Tell the story of grace
With every move that you make
And every little thing you do 

~ Do Everything- Steven Curtis Chapman

  What a great reminder that everything we do, whether it's making dinner, sitting in traffic, cleaning the house, going to work, or anything else, it all matters to God. EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT. So remember this- everything matters in the light of eternity.


Praying for many of my friends and coworkers who need His touch!

I just have to make a quick post about this song I heard. Here are the lyrics to the chorus-

"All I know is I'm not home yet 
This is not where I belong 
Take this world and give me Jesus 
This is not where I belong!" ~Where I Belong


Home is not this world. Home is the world "up there" with my Savior and all my coheirs in Christ. So take this world away because all I need is Jesus! 


Link to song- Where I Belong- Building 429

It's Sunday

Today was an overall excellent day! Both church services were very enjoyable and then the Giants won against the Green Day Packers!! Very exciting! My family are huge football fans so we were very happy!

I watched Sense and Sensibility this afternoon and I'm watching the 2005 Pride and Prejudice now and I am beginning to remember why I love these movies/stories/books so much! They are reminders that there are still some good in the world. Maybe, just maybe...

All well. When this is over, time for bed. Maybe if I get all my schoolwork done on time, I can watch another :)

Love in Him,

Abby

So much to do... so little time.

I have SO much to get done, but I feel like there's no time. Right now I have to write a summary report to review on Everyman and read The Rime of the Ancient Mariner. Sometimes I feel like there's so much pressure that is on me making me suffocate. I have been trying this new year to really focus on what's really important like my relationship with my Lord and my school until April when I will have a much needed break. But I can't seem to focus on the things at hand. I have quiet music on the try to keep me focused but it's not working. Neither is my coffee, or my hot cocoa, or anything else. I hate days like these.

Time to try again....